"Playing Pretend" a blovel by SiNgUrL - Chapter 1: "Best Friends" - Blovel Spot
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Void On Christmas
Waking up at five o'clock to go to the bathroom, I climbed down from our double deck sleepily. Outside, I could hear Christmas songs playing from our barangay's little chapel. Our house help was already there waiting for the "Simbang Gabi"like how she did everyday. I passed by my uncle's bed and he hasn't arrived yet and I wondered where he could be and asked her, our house help, if she knew but like any of us, she didn't.
I climbed back to bed feeling cold. The wind is chilly this time of the year here in the Philippines and I wondered how lower the temperature in our province could be.
After drinking water from my new personalized tumbler, I rested back on my bed. Then the mass was starting, I could hear it. But I can't. I don't want to. I caught my breath thinking about him, my special friend.
The past few months before I came back here, we attended mass, prayed the rosary and novena together. We always sat next to each other feeling comfortable and warm. He usually rested his ankle on his knee while the other was resting on my leg. I could remember it clearly. I haven't seen him do that with anyone but me. And I liked the feeling of his gestures. We also usually played with our hands, tangling and untangling them, holding each other feeling warm. I could also recall when he snatched away the cookie I was munching on and ate all of it so that I couldn't snatch it back from him. I wince at him then he would give me the cookie he was munching on and smile like it was only normal that I ate his cookie when he eats mine.
One time, his sister would lean next to him and he would move away telling her to stop bothering him and then his sister would ask why he was acting that way toward him but when it was me, he would stay still and even get closer. that was what our sister complain about t times.
"Why don't you want me to hug you but when it comes to him..."
"It's always him..."
That's what my sister always says and that's what I heard from his sister one time.
Those were our memories. Some of them, I mean. Because now, even if i badly miss him and long to be with him, I can't because he's so far away, literally. I left that place because i was a coward. I couldn't face having such satisfying happiness and overwhelming warmth because I know it wouldn't last. I don't expect it, too. I have been to a relationship before that I expected too much and believed in it that much until it only ended painfully sooner than I thought it would. And I don't think I could face that kind of heartbreak again.
I do miss him so much and this Christmas, I won't be able to be with him and listen to Christmas music. I just wish someone could fill the void that I'm feeling now. Someone to patch it but no, that's not what I really want. Because what i want is o see him agaian and continue the happiness I was feeling before i left.
I climbed back to bed feeling cold. The wind is chilly this time of the year here in the Philippines and I wondered how lower the temperature in our province could be.
After drinking water from my new personalized tumbler, I rested back on my bed. Then the mass was starting, I could hear it. But I can't. I don't want to. I caught my breath thinking about him, my special friend.
The past few months before I came back here, we attended mass, prayed the rosary and novena together. We always sat next to each other feeling comfortable and warm. He usually rested his ankle on his knee while the other was resting on my leg. I could remember it clearly. I haven't seen him do that with anyone but me. And I liked the feeling of his gestures. We also usually played with our hands, tangling and untangling them, holding each other feeling warm. I could also recall when he snatched away the cookie I was munching on and ate all of it so that I couldn't snatch it back from him. I wince at him then he would give me the cookie he was munching on and smile like it was only normal that I ate his cookie when he eats mine.
One time, his sister would lean next to him and he would move away telling her to stop bothering him and then his sister would ask why he was acting that way toward him but when it was me, he would stay still and even get closer. that was what our sister complain about t times.
"Why don't you want me to hug you but when it comes to him..."
"It's always him..."
That's what my sister always says and that's what I heard from his sister one time.
Those were our memories. Some of them, I mean. Because now, even if i badly miss him and long to be with him, I can't because he's so far away, literally. I left that place because i was a coward. I couldn't face having such satisfying happiness and overwhelming warmth because I know it wouldn't last. I don't expect it, too. I have been to a relationship before that I expected too much and believed in it that much until it only ended painfully sooner than I thought it would. And I don't think I could face that kind of heartbreak again.
I do miss him so much and this Christmas, I won't be able to be with him and listen to Christmas music. I just wish someone could fill the void that I'm feeling now. Someone to patch it but no, that's not what I really want. Because what i want is o see him agaian and continue the happiness I was feeling before i left.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Farmville Fun
Opening my facebook acccount almost everyday to check my notifications and my games became a habit.
My favorite game so far is farmville wherein I own a farm and manage it. From a small piece of land, I plow then plant and harvest then start all over again. I earn and level up tp make my land vast and rich. Buying seeds and decorations, buying and adopting farm animals and other strange animals that aren't supposed to be in a real farm, planting trees which were givven as gifts by my friends.
When I reach the right level and amount of money, I could upgrade my farm and buy an extension of the land to make it larger because there are so many new things to buy and put in it. I just love it when I level up while competing with my friends. It's so cool. I love the game!
Try playing it on http://www.farmville.com then add me as farmville neighbor. :)
This December, you can pile up gifts up to a hundred under a Christmas tree then you get to open them on Christmas day! I'm so excited to complete my collection.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
14 Books to go?!
I set a personalized challenge for myself this year - MY PERSONAL 2009 CHALLENGE. But I started doing it and setting it halfway of the year that's why I still have to read 15 books.
The challenge I chose for myself is to finish reading books with their author's surnames (A-Z).
The books I finished reading so far for the challenge are the following:
A- Alcott, Luisa May (Little Woman)
B-
C- Cook, Robin (Seizure)
D- Deaves, Jefferey (Devil's Teardrop)
E-
F- Follett, Ken (Hornet Flight and Pillars of the Earth)
G-
H-
I-
J-
K- Kelly. Cathy (Lessons in Heartbreak)
L- Lee, Harper (To Kill a Mocking Bird)
M- Montgomery, L.M. (Anne of Green Gables)
N-
O- Orwell, George ( Animal Farm)
P- Patterson, James (2nd Chance), Prophet, Elizabeth Clare (Lost Years of Jesus Christ)
Q-
R-
S- Soto, Gray (Afterlife) ; Salinger, J.D. (Catcher in the Rye)
T-
U-
V- Vincenzi, Penny (Another Woman and Almost a Crime)
W-
X-
Y- Yap, Joselito (In Our Days) ; Young, Karen (Beyond Summer)
Z-
It's still a long way to go but I have enough time. Tonight, I'm going to finish the book "Ice Maiden" by Edna Buchanan for letter B.
I'm still not finished because maybe I wasn't that focused with the challenge. I made it a rule to myself that I won't include the sequel books in the list and so I didn't but I kept on reading them and I also had read books with the needed letter twice like in letter S above. I was also always being distracted with my other hobbies like sketching, painting, scrapbooking, and writing, which took most of my time.So I must try to focus before January 1, 2010. I must fill in the missing letters above.
Good Lcuk with me and those with reading challenges of their own! :)
The challenge I chose for myself is to finish reading books with their author's surnames (A-Z).
The books I finished reading so far for the challenge are the following:
A- Alcott, Luisa May (Little Woman)
B-
C- Cook, Robin (Seizure)
D- Deaves, Jefferey (Devil's Teardrop)
E-
F- Follett, Ken (Hornet Flight and Pillars of the Earth)
G-
H-
I-
J-
K- Kelly. Cathy (Lessons in Heartbreak)
L- Lee, Harper (To Kill a Mocking Bird)
M- Montgomery, L.M. (Anne of Green Gables)
N-
O- Orwell, George ( Animal Farm)
P- Patterson, James (2nd Chance), Prophet, Elizabeth Clare (Lost Years of Jesus Christ)
Q-
R-
S- Soto, Gray (Afterlife) ; Salinger, J.D. (Catcher in the Rye)
T-
U-
V- Vincenzi, Penny (Another Woman and Almost a Crime)
W-
X-
Y- Yap, Joselito (In Our Days) ; Young, Karen (Beyond Summer)
Z-
It's still a long way to go but I have enough time. Tonight, I'm going to finish the book "Ice Maiden" by Edna Buchanan for letter B.
I'm still not finished because maybe I wasn't that focused with the challenge. I made it a rule to myself that I won't include the sequel books in the list and so I didn't but I kept on reading them and I also had read books with the needed letter twice like in letter S above. I was also always being distracted with my other hobbies like sketching, painting, scrapbooking, and writing, which took most of my time.So I must try to focus before January 1, 2010. I must fill in the missing letters above.
Good Lcuk with me and those with reading challenges of their own! :)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
NANOWRIMO TGIO Party
As celebration for our efforts in reaching the 50k or more words goal novel in a moth, the ML's for every NaNoWriMo region around the world organize TGIO parties set for a certain date and venue. For our region which is Asia:Philippines was held in Bestsellers, Robinson's Galleria, Ortigas olast Saturday, December 5, 2009 at two to five PM.
I was late. I wasn't even sure at first whether to go meet the other PinoyWrimos in person but I was glad that I did go in the end. And with my luck, who knew I was going to take home this very cute journal and a small pink moleskine notebook from the raffle. And of course, the stickers! I love stickers! It was a cool party.
There was an intermission then wherein Gary - one PinoyWrimo writer - has this composition which was sung by his partner who unfortunately I forgot the name. She's a good singer and she sung three songs. My favorite was the last one she sang entitled "Give Up Sometime".
After some talks from a few of us, the intermission and the raffle, the party ended but I didn't go meet my mom immediately which I was supposed to do because I had coffee with two of the writes - Mae, who is a professor in a Korean School and Tala who is currently working under a non-government Organization (NGO) which has the mission to protect women and children's rights. After chatting and killing time in Gloria Jeans wherein I was freezing because of the Cookies and cream chiller I had which Mae had, too, we went our separate ways and we all went home.
I felt it was sort of another accomplishment, meeting new people I mean, with the same hobbies as me.
Again, thanks to L.B. who is my current inspiration in everything I do. The boy who told me to be the best and who actually appreciates my real talent in writing. He's the one who gave me the reason to come back home here in the Philippines and try to find and live a life - my life.
I was late. I wasn't even sure at first whether to go meet the other PinoyWrimos in person but I was glad that I did go in the end. And with my luck, who knew I was going to take home this very cute journal and a small pink moleskine notebook from the raffle. And of course, the stickers! I love stickers! It was a cool party.
There was an intermission then wherein Gary - one PinoyWrimo writer - has this composition which was sung by his partner who unfortunately I forgot the name. She's a good singer and she sung three songs. My favorite was the last one she sang entitled "Give Up Sometime".
After some talks from a few of us, the intermission and the raffle, the party ended but I didn't go meet my mom immediately which I was supposed to do because I had coffee with two of the writes - Mae, who is a professor in a Korean School and Tala who is currently working under a non-government Organization (NGO) which has the mission to protect women and children's rights. After chatting and killing time in Gloria Jeans wherein I was freezing because of the Cookies and cream chiller I had which Mae had, too, we went our separate ways and we all went home.
I felt it was sort of another accomplishment, meeting new people I mean, with the same hobbies as me.
Again, thanks to L.B. who is my current inspiration in everything I do. The boy who told me to be the best and who actually appreciates my real talent in writing. He's the one who gave me the reason to come back home here in the Philippines and try to find and live a life - my life.
You Are True
You make me fall in love with you
Like no one else can ever do
This song's playing in my head
With every word you said.
Can't take you off my mind
You make me always want to smile
I can't seem to fight it off no more.
With the smile you share
You make me feel your love and care
And with every move you do
Only proves to me that you are true.
With every touch from you
You just don't have one clue
It makes me catch my breath and I fall
all over you.
Is it all true?
***
A/N
This song lyrics I wrote is dedicated to someone special to my heart.
I wrote it as the words just flowed out when his warmth flooded through my systems.
Originally Posted on Breathe Cafe on: Nov. 30, 2009
Like no one else can ever do
This song's playing in my head
With every word you said.
Can't take you off my mind
You make me always want to smile
I can't seem to fight it off no more.
With the smile you share
You make me feel your love and care
And with every move you do
Only proves to me that you are true.
With every touch from you
You just don't have one clue
It makes me catch my breath and I fall
all over you.
Is it all true?
***
A/N
This song lyrics I wrote is dedicated to someone special to my heart.
I wrote it as the words just flowed out when his warmth flooded through my systems.
Originally Posted on Breathe Cafe on: Nov. 30, 2009
Happy Birthday, Tito Edwin
I could still remember the times we had
The love you shared since we were kids
The care you gave even when we were aprt
Placed you, uncle, in a special place in our hearts.
I know we owe you much since the start
But it's not the reason why in us you're a part
But because you're a family and we love you
So always remember we'll always be here for you.
Sometimes we appear like we don't care or we forgot
But it's because we're not sure how to show we love you a lot
People will come and go in your life for reasons
But we'll be here even if everyone leaves and runs.
Originally Posted on Breathe Cafe on: Nov. 16, 2009
The love you shared since we were kids
The care you gave even when we were aprt
Placed you, uncle, in a special place in our hearts.
I know we owe you much since the start
But it's not the reason why in us you're a part
But because you're a family and we love you
So always remember we'll always be here for you.
Sometimes we appear like we don't care or we forgot
But it's because we're not sure how to show we love you a lot
People will come and go in your life for reasons
But we'll be here even if everyone leaves and runs.
Originally Posted on Breathe Cafe on: Nov. 16, 2009
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